It's been eight months since my last trimester's life plan went devastatingly to a halt. I know I'm stuck navigating it alone. Plans DH and I had need to be scrapped or carried on by me alone. Nothing is going to change that; nothing I can do will bring me back to what life was like on January 17th. Dwelling in this blog from time to time since then was useful, if only to dump my thoughts in the post or in response to comments. I think it's run it's course now. My kids deserve their privacy. I do as well, even though I have appreciated the support and kind words.
So consider this my last post as Sam, the recent widow. I'm debating where blogging fits, if it does, going forward. I liked the concept of writing about budgeting and money management, creative cooking, exploring, travel, all things that were part of my life, and I hope still will be. Maybe I'll try and bring some version of my former blog back, albeit in this new unasked for life. It'd be nice to earn a little fun money, bring AdSense back, maybe explore Instagram and the other platforms, things to keep me busy in my many hours I'm now alone. Not right now though; this weight of grief is so heavy.
I may try and figure out a new reincarnation of Sam, Coffee, Money, and Thyme, but hiding all the past posts and starting fresh with a public face. Or maybe not. I realized it was 10 years ago that I started to blog. To all you kind people, thank you for being readers and friends.
We will miss you, and I hope to see you back in any form feels comfortable & makes sense to you.
ReplyDeleteYou have to do what works for you, and if ending the blog is what you need to do, then do it. Or if after a while you want to go in a different direction, that is OK too.
ReplyDeleteRight now all you need to do is what is best for you, but you will be missed.
Whatever you decide, just let us know occasionally how you are doing.
Anne in the Kitchen
You do what's right for you, but I do hope we'll get to hear from you from time to time! Take care. A
ReplyDeleteWell, that is sad news, but completely understandable. Do what's best for you and your family. We will be here if you ever decide to blog again. Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to read this, but you need to do what's right (I almost wrote "write") for you.
ReplyDeleteMy BIL died in November (he was only 66) and my uncle this past June (85) and I'm watching my sister and my aunt navigate their new lives without their partners. Their collective grief is similar but the way they handle it varies greatly.
Maybe you could post a "wordless Wednesday" picture of the doggies (or your latest cooking) every once in a while so we can sort of keep in touch and you'll know we're still out here for you. XO
I would hate to see you stop blogging. But I also understand that you have to do what is right for you. REMEMBER - that keeps him alive in your heart. But you DO have to reinvent yourself as this new you comes about. It takes time and patience with yourself. I know from experience. I hope to see you back here with new ideas and new joys of a different sort in your life. Take care sweet lady.
ReplyDeleteSending you love as you continue on this journey. I follow you on IG, I hope if your desire to blog returns, you come back. If not, thank you for sharing with us when you could do so.
ReplyDeleteWe will miss you, but we understand. Do what is best for you and your family. Wishing you peace and comfort in the days ahead.
ReplyDeleteEveryone has to travel the journey of grief their way. I will miss your posts but maybe it is time to recreate yourself. Good Luck and God Bless.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your journey. Take care of yourself.
ReplyDeleteI am echoing everyone else's comments in that you have to do what's best for yourself and for your family.
ReplyDeleteI’ll miss your blog for sure but, as the others have said, you should do what is right for you. You have always struck me as such a kind and compassionate person and I’m so sorry for what you are going through. If you ever put up a new blog I will surely follow along. I’ve always enjoyed your writing. Take care. ColoradoGirl
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear this but you have to do what works for you.
ReplyDeleteAnother echo of the same comments - you have to do what is best for you. I will miss your blog. SuzInWA
ReplyDeleteI certainly understand, I feel like my life was ripped in two. Also I have trouble blogging as the things I blogged about make no sense now. It is just hard to adjust, but I know I can't lose you so......
ReplyDeleteYour writing will be much missed. I hope you will feel able to return at some point, but as others have said, you have to do what you feel is best for you and your family. I'm always here if you want a chat via email. Take good care of yourself. With love from across the ocean. L Xx
ReplyDeleteVirtual hugs and best wishes. Cindy in the South
ReplyDeleteI'm happy for you but sad for us. We'll welcome you with open arms in whichever way you want to be.
ReplyDeleteWishing you well. I will miss you.
ReplyDeleteI will read along in whatever shape, form, or fashion you choose! Sending hugs.
ReplyDeleteI will miss you! But I understand. Maybe I’ll see you over on instagram? I don’t do much but it’s nice to post little things on my story every now and then. It’s a quick way to stay connected. JoAnn
ReplyDeleteJre. Thanks for all your posts and I also just wish you well in the future. It’s is hard if you feel you’re not in a safe anonymous place. But you have only seemed open and honest and kind.
ReplyDeleteI too will miss your blog but you need to do what's best for you right now in this grieving time. Best to you.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find a new path to blogging. I've enjoyed your blog the past 10 years and wish you the best.
ReplyDeleteOh no! I too empathize yet feel I am losing a friend. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI understand... been there done that... but I will worry about how you are. Blessed Be Sam.
ReplyDeleteI will miss your blog but you need to do what feels right for you. I wish you the best on your journey forward.
ReplyDeleteI will miss you too
ReplyDeleteBut you have to do what is best for you
How can it be 8 months ?
It’s six for me on the 25th
Siobhan x
I will miss you. Best wishes ..
ReplyDeleteWe certainly understand, although we will definitely miss you and your blog. (((((Sam)))))
ReplyDeleteAs everyone said, you will be missed ~~ and worried about, so it would be great to see a post every now and then. As someone said above, perhaps a Wordless Wednesday picture. But if you need to truly pull the plug, please know we will miss you and continue to think of you.
ReplyDeleteTake care! Chris from Wisconsin
If you must change, which I understand, maybe just a new version of your blog will be perfect for you. I would miss the opportunity to read old posts, but it is your choice. I have not commented lately here or anywhere because I am ill and get tired easily.
ReplyDeleteGood thoughts to you in the future.
ReplyDeleteI'll miss you very much if you stopped blogging, Sam but I completely understand your reasons behind discontinuing with your blog or starting a new one. Wishing you and your family all the best. xxx
ReplyDeleteI was thinking about you this week.....Hoping you are doing as ok as is possible and missing your voice online. 8-))
ReplyDeleteOh Sam I am so sorry to hear you lost your husband too, and I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you. I hope you are hanging in there, it's so difficult. Big hugs to you my friend.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you!
ReplyDeleteSending hugs and prayers for comfort this holiday season.
Sending you, the kids and your family love this holiday season Sam.
ReplyDeleteI am thinking of you; the first christmas is a hard one. I hope you are with loved ones this time of year.
ReplyDelete