Thursday, June 4, 2015
Stop Crying Already
Today DD#2 "graduates" from middle school. My sweet, petite, Boo, my bonus baby, will be a high school student. I am just crying inside to think her childhood, my last opportunity as a parent to a child, is done. We move to planning her high school schedule that starts the academic path to a final GPA. We will get her signed up for drivers ed as she can get her permit in January. She will have friends that drive, a new worry. I sat in church at the service for graduating Seniors and had to fight tears remembering DS and DD, already 6 & 8 years since they finished school, went to college, and severed any final links to their childhood. But there is no reason for me to cry. All three are healthy and for the most part unscathed by the brutal side of life. There is no reason to cry when each says, "love you too," when I tell them I love them. There is no reason to cry when I look at my DS's handsome face, and the DD's beautiful smiles and see their tiny faces on their first day of kindergarten. There is no reason to cry because I did a good job, if not perfect, as their mom. There is no reason to cry at her middle school graduation, but I will.
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A couple of queries - how old are youngsters when they graduate from middle school? And how old do they have to be to drive?
ReplyDeleteMiddle school ends at 8th grade so 14 or 13 if a summer birthday. Driver permits at 15 and they csn drive with an adult in car, license at 16. She has friends s year or two older who are starting dtiving now.
DeleteI so understand this post. My bonus baby is now 21 and while I am thrilled he is happy, healthy and reasonably unscathed by life, it is a bittersweet pill to realize my sons no longer need mothering, they just need a mom.
ReplyDeleteIt is hardest with the last one. We have 12 and 10 years between the two older and this one, so I knew I had lots of hands on parenting to do with the last being so little. This is truly it, and now I have offically moved out of the mommy set, and I am genuinely sad about that. She's sitting on a chair next to me reading a book, havin ghad her big end of school year bash last weekend. I secretly wish she owuld jump out of her deck chair and go join the younger kids on the playground one more time!
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