Saturday, November 12, 2016

Trying to Be Normal

I took a bit of a tumble Monday morning. I was moving forward down a flight of stairs, my knee was not. Down I went, landing in a heap at the bottom. I have been having more of these hiccups, bouts of being uncoordinated where I trip just walking or am stuck in a spot unable to move from my knees for a brief second. Most of the time it is just embarrassing but on a couple occasions, like Monday, it could have been dangerous. Figuring out what is going on has been tricky. The tests I have had to date have said nothing is wrong other than the arthritis and the vitamin D and iron deficiencies that peak and lull. I'm also dealing with a new round of uterine bleeding, depsite my supposed menopausal state, and will be having surgery again in about 1 1/2 weeks. This triggered the anemia to come back-from a good healthy number on Ocotber 11th, to falling below even my accpetable ranges as of yesterday. My continued bought of simultaneous, but unrelated symptoms continue.


I’m carrying on life as normal as best I can, wondering if this is just what aging is like for some people; the unsteadiness, weakness at times, and ever present pain, sometimes pronounced, sometimes dull, but there constantly. With the bleeding again, no medicatiosn that thin blood, so even the modest releif ibuprofen gives will be put aside for now.  I wonder, should I be pushing back at the negative test results, demanding something be done? I feel like I need one of those television doctors, the ones that notice subtle little cues, and find some rare, yet very solvable medical ailment, that less than 1 in 1,000,000 people have. Until then, I’ll keep plugging away at trying to lose the weight that has sent my BMI to an unhealthy range and I know is adding to the aches. I’ll remember to hydrate and follow the limited guidance I’ve been given so far about eating a healthy diet, taking my vitamins and minerals, and getting rest. 

I know many of you that read this blog from reading yours that you have your own health demons, most far worse than mine, so can relalte. While I am reassured that nothing is life threatening and more inconvenient than debilitating, I still would like to get a normal life back. Making it about money, I'm crushed that we will have a ton more out of pocket expenses just as we were finally coming out of our financial stalemate. Making it aobut time, this means I'll be missing a few days at work and won't feel chipper over the Thanksgiving long weekend. I get crabby when the trifecta of not feeling well, feeling pressed for time, and feeling money woes hit at the same time, but then don't we all? I hope I can still carry on with a few interesting blog posts, but if I'm off my game, you all know why.  Cheers to all of you maintaining good health, and thanks for reading. 

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  1. Take care of yourself. Let the money stuff go for now as health is better for focus on now.
    If you feel the docs aren't catching something perhaps a second opinion is in order?

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    1. Of course the money "woes" will still be there waiting, LOL. I don't think anything has been missed, and I've had several consults, and the docs have communicated with each other. I do not feel "blown off" as I know so mnay people have felt when they can't get straight answeres. I appear to be just unfortunaltey having several different issues, all ganging up on me simultaously, or one after the other. The balalnce thing is most worrisome and my primary and rheumatologist have me keeping a log to see if either can see any patterns.

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  2. So sorry. :-( I do understand & all I can say is, practice good self care. For me, that's light walking, hot baths, wine (just a little!), doing less than I "want to", and getting lots of sleep. Hugs! Feel better soon.

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    1. Thanks for the reminder. Self care is important and I spent much of yesterday resting and we had leftovers and frozen pizza for supper. This meant forgoing a night with friends that I was looking forward to, but would not have enjoyed properly.

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  3. SAM, I'm so sorry about this! And I understand the frustration that you are feeling. After my lengthy experience with an undiagnosed illness - it took them over a year to figure out it was MS because my original symptoms were atypical, my best advice to you is to make sure you are with doctors who are listening to you and you feel comfortable with! Knowing you are in good competent hands helps relieve stress! And, like Hawaii said, self care is extremely important! Also, don't be too hard on yourself about not being able to "do it all". 99% of what can't be done today will be there tomorrow.
    Sending good thoughts your way! =)

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    1. I am more than willing to take help now so can get rest when needed. I'm sorry you struggled so long. I've had MS and Lupus ruled a couple times but I'll see if my coordination doesn't improve to push a bit more.

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  4. So sorry to hear about all your health issues! Sometimes these small niggles and unidentified woes are worse because our imagination goes heywire. Or mine does. Ageing is not easy and as we age we need to be even more proactive with exercise and diet to maintain our health. It seems as menopause hits our bodies can be immersed in subtle shifts that take a while to adapt to. These can manifest into just the scenario you are describing. If you have underlying illnesses as well, they can compound the issue.
    I've been through this as has a couple of friends of mine. But we seem to be slowly regaining our strength as the balance is reasserted on the other side of menopause.
    As all the others have said, be kind to your self and lower your expectations!
    Big hugs, Jazzy Jack

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    1. I'm reading a lot and may be just not adjusting well to natural aging process. I'm really trying to take better care-nutrition and exercise. After this surgery hope that blip will be resolved.I appreciate the upbeat response and feel hopeful.

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  5. Bless you Sam I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. Hawaii planner has said it all really but one thing I would add which I'm a huge fan of is organic matcha tea. I wrote a post on this a while back because I believe it helps with joint pain Rheumatism and inflammation probs and increases and strengthens our immunity etc. It also revs up metabolism so aids with weight loss. It's not cheap but I have a cup which is just a half teaspoon every day and I've not had a cold or any illness since I've been drinking it. This is pretty good going especially as my granddaughters are always coming back from school/ nursery with all sorts of bugs. Give it a go can't do any harm apart from hitting your pocket lol. Hope you feel better soon. X

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    1. I remember that post. Tea in general always gives me a boost so if nothing to lose, may be worth a try. I know some herbal treatments have impact with tradition meds so will bring up on Tuesday.

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  6. Take care of yourself, rest and know I am thinking of you.
    Let go of every single thing that you can and concentrate of you right now

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    1. The worst is giving up things. We met friends last night but had to cut the evening very short and I was uncomfortable the whole time. I'm debating an activity at a friend's. It's not too physical more just socialising and I'll be at comfortable home and bathroom.

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  7. Hugs SAM. I know just how you feel about the not knowing exactly what is wrong, and I too have started bleeding again this week - after a gap of 7 months :(
    I seem to have lots of the symptoms of MS but nobody has mentioned this as a possibility (joined up thinking between departments is sadly lacking over here) and I daren't mention it to J as he is worried enough. I'm hoping that the B12 injection will help with the stumbling and odd sensations in my limbs. I'm making the most of the effects of the steroids but am fearful of what will happen when the course is finished.

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    1. Two peas in a crappy pod! It is hard to deal with others worry. I minimize how lousy I feel but DH and DD know when I'm not really good. I hope your latest bout helps.

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