This post is part self accountability, but self permission to be human. Does anyone else battle the two self images, productive in certain parts of your life, but feel woefully behind and lacking in others?
Friday I was extremely "on" at work. Before 10:00 I had wrapped up two projects, despite being out of the office for two days. By mid day, solved two grantees problems and got them sorted for moving forward. I had two longer than normal check-ins with staff that were quite positive, and finally completed two mandatory on-line trainings that I started and was interrupted multiple times. I actually left the office at 2:00 and did those from home. I am usually very efficient and effective with my time use at work.
Home, not so much. Actually, I am productive, but don't seem to get as much as I would like accomplished. Yesterday, knowing I was not going to be home most of today, I decided no excuses. It looked like it was going to be a bit rainy so I didn't get bedding outside on the lines as I would have liked, but I managed to get all the bed linens stripped, washed, and replaced. I did several loads of delicate clothes, hanging on hangers and getting ready for the week ahead. I cleaned the fridge out, and topped off the groceries, also making Sloppy Joe's and salad to bring along today. Getting up at 4:00 a.m. (not that early intentionally) to watch Royal weddings helps add hours to the day!
I would have liked more time on big projects like the berry bushes and the rubbish piles. I need more purging done in the garage and another purge of closets. And, I want to find more time to work on the book and the web site for which I purchased the domain for last year. There it sits, still not launched.
Rome wasn't created in a day and neither is my life. I need to be focused but I also need to cut myself slack. It's not like I'm sitting around watching soap operas and eating candy all day, though probably do more of both than I should. Little by little I am feeling a bit more control of some of the home chaos. In reality, there is just as much to do as ever, but I need to remember I don't own it alone. I'll keep plugging away at balance, and purging the useless stuff from life, things and activities.