Whenever something rooted in hate and evil happens in the world, I get down, depressed, convinced it is hopeless and no matter how good a life someone tries to lead, it all comes down to chance, which no one controls. I know I tend to feel western acts of terrorism and violence much more acutely; my heart goes out to those impacted by the horror in London; still I know parts of the world these events are weekly and daily occurrences. Good people, living their normal lives, doing nothing but being human. Bad people with the power.
Those same days, I'll be in a grocery store line, reading the tabloid headlines, the highlights of the rich and famous and think what did these simpletons do to deserve their wealth? I heard the latest about a woman I knew from high school, self important and down right mean to others back then, having married a rich man who dotes on her every whim, while learning about one of the sweetest people I know losing her job, needed as she carried insurance, with a husband with heart disease. Sometimes life doesn't feel just unfair, it seems downright cruel. Those that are willing to manipulate the system, tread on others, will hold the power, leaving the meek crumbs. Karma never seems to make an appearance to some.
Yet, who am I to decide who is a good person and who is a bad person? I'm sure, unwillingly or not, I have done wrong to others. I've been the beneficiary of luxuries, that I did nothing to earn. I don't know how people lead their lives off the newspaper tabloid covers or the happy hour talk. As the line goes, everyone is fighting their own battles.On days when my mood is low, it is real easy for me to get envious, no, downright jealous, of the great things that are happening in the lives of people I've deemed in my head less deserving. I dislike that quality in me, the pettiness. I go from that mood, to guilt. I ask, why do I, such an undeserving soul, have so much? When the moods pass, I go back to just trying to make decisions that are good, right for me and my family, that have either no impact, or a good impact on others, and go on with life. With just a few exceptions, there are not good people or bad people, just people. With hope, me and others when fortunate enough to be part of those that have good things happening, will step up to help mitigate the bad stuff for others.